I am sure that you have all heard by now what is going on within the Catholic Church and the abuse rocking it. As a Catholic I struggle with this. I, in fact, grew up in a church where the priest was involved in a scandal years later. It turned out that he had an affair with a woman and she said he had fathered her child. In the end he was not the father and she actually had affairs with several priests over the years. You can read about it here.
I didn’t follow the trial very much because I felt that it had tainted my memory of him. I was in my teens at the time and I remembered him being one of the nicest priests I had ever met. He always seemed to have time for any questions or concerns. In fact, he had dinner at our home several times throughout the years. I am in no way saying what he did was okay even though his affair was with a grown woman and not an abuse sort of scandal. I remember my father saying at the time, that he was only human and humans make mistakes. He wasn’t infallible.
I now feel that was about the church. They made a mistake, a lot of mistakes. However the church is made up of men who are human and not infallible. They should have done the right then but in their zealousness to maintain an image they let down not only their congregation but their faith as well. They let themselves down. So where does that leave me as a Catholic?
I honestly don’t know. All I can do is put my faith in God and hope that the church takes the steps needed to ensure that this never happens again. I would love to see them take the steps to make this right but I just don’t know if they can at this point. How do they make something like this right? Is there any way to move beyond it? Church laws and rules have to be changed even though that is easier said than done. Years of dogma has allowed things like to happen with those in power turning a blind eye. Lord willing they will no longer do that.
I have struggled with my faith for a number of years. Now it seems that I have found my way back only to have that faith shaken to the core again. Where I go from here with it is up in the air. I have been working my way though the betrayal I feel. However I’m not sure I have the right to feel that way. In the end I am sorry and pray for the victims of this horrible tragedy. That is what all of this is, tragedy for everyone involved all around.