If that statement is the statement of the year! No matter how hard I try, no matter what it is that I seem to do I can’t manage to keep a single fitness goal. I did manage it one or twice last year but for some reason this year is a bust so far.
It seems like every single time I attempt to set a goal and meet it fitness wise something seems to go wrong. I haven’t a clue what it is either. You would think I would be great at this. However I do admit that a lot of my goals this year seem to be falling apart at the seams. It is so easy to write down a goal and then say I am going to do XYZ to get it done. It sounds great and I feel so pumped when I make the goal. It is the follow through that I am having a hard time with.
In fact, the last few weeks I have been doing less fitness and more eating. I need to work out the reason why. The other night I was eating some chips and thought “What in the world am I doing?” I wasn’t hungry, yet I was eating.
I think a lot of it is emotional. I know that I am an emotional eater and that my depression has been in full force. That, I think, is what has led me to abandon my fitness goals completely this year. Although I do know that I have to accept responsibility for not seeing those goals through. It is far to easy to lay the blame at a disorder rather than accept that I am lazy. I know I am lazy when it comes to fitness.
My laziness is something that I have been working on. I thought or at the least felt as though I was making headway. Now I feel as though I am starting from the beginning again. Maybe I shouldn’t make a goal and hope to follow through. I don’t know and I am open to any suggestions that y’all have. For someone who isn’t very active to attempt to be active isn’t always easy. I can do well for days even a month or two but always end up backsliding.
I had hoped to be walking five miles a day by now. I’m not even walking a mile most days. I need to find my motivation. Every night before I go to bed I tell myself that I am going to get back to it the next morning. The next morning I have fifty excuses for why I haven’t walked yet. My biggest goal for this month is be able to tell y’all I have walked every day for a single week. That is all i am hoping for at this moment.